Friday, June 30, 2017

Halle Berry on Her Oscar Win: It ‘Meant Nothing’ for Hollywood Diversity

Halle Berry became the first black woman to win an Academy Award for best actress in 2002 for her performance in “Monster’s Ball.” Fifteen years later, and she’s still the only woman of color to receive the coveted award. In a recent Teen Vogue interview at a panel at the Cannes Lions International Festival of Creativity, the actress divulged her thoughts on the Academy’s lack of diversity progress, most notably the 2016 Oscar nominations, which drew criticism for failing to represent nominees of color and sparked the hashtag #OscarsSoWhite. “I sat there and I really thought, ‘Wow, that moment really meant nothing. It meant nothing. I thought it meant something, but I think it meant nothing,'” she said of her own historic win in light of the 2016 nominations. Since her win, eight women of color have been nominated in the best-actress category.

Ingrid Chavez - Heaven Must Be Near

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Just a thought

I'm excited, because now that I have a car, I don't have to take public transportation to get to church. I can drive there now.  I can serve God with like-minded people ( and perhaps find my wife).

Just a thought.

Aaliyah - One In A Million Medley (BJ The Chicago Kid cover)

BJ The Chicago Kid - Good Luv'n

BJ the Chicago Kid - Turnin Me Up

Oddisee - Like Really | A COLORS SHOW

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Kendrick Lamar - DNA.

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Good Times August.20.2000 Documentary

Song in my head

What Do You Want To Be?

"Life is not having and getting, but being and becoming."
 ~ Mathew Arnold

I don't know why, but when I saw this quote, it was like a lightbulb turned on, in my head, and I smiled. We spend a lot of time seeking things. Getting things, and in the end, regretting being things. For example, if I was on my dying bed today, I wouldn't be concerned about the beautiful, delicious cakes I've made or the fantastic short stories or poems I've written. My first thoughts would be- was I a good uncle, or brother, or son, or friend, or Godfather or husband or father?  Was I good and funny and reliable to the people I claim to love?  That's what' is important to me.

How about you?

Monday, June 26, 2017

Note to self

You haven't been listening

I was showing someone pictures of my first  and second trip to Paris, and after looking at about 300 pictures, she looks at me and said, "you're lonely, aren't you? All this time, I thought you wanted to be alone."  I was speechless- too dumbfounded to respond. She could tell from the pictures, but not from knowing me and the things in life that I long for and haven't had luck attaining?

(If you ask me questions in which I feel you-if anyone, should know the answer, then that means that you really don't know me, and it makes me sad because it means that you haven't been listening. I thought it was obvious...)

A few minutes ago

I jumped from the roof of a 97 storey building. As I reached the 10th story, the speed at which I was falling had slowed down drastically, and I was able to land on the sidewalk gently, and was able to walk away before I woke up and made this blog entry.

This dream has to mean something, right?

Sunday, June 25, 2017


"...What you give is what you get...Universal Plan..."

Jill Scott - 'Cant explain 42nd Street Happenstance'

What musicians are you listening to currently?

Jordan Rakei Mary Letoya Kendrick Lamarr Nick Hakim NxWorries

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Maybe... just maybe

The experience of the journey has to beat the fear of failure... or you might just live your life your life in regret.Don't take my word for it, go volunteer at a nursing home for a day or 2 so you can experience what regret looks like... if you need a push.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

A Good Friday



I got a car on friday, and I didn't have to pay a penny for it! A nice used vehicle.  My friend Terrance and his family are moving back to Africa-Nigeria namely, and he was going to donate it to church or a charity, and I told him I needed a car, and he gave it to me instead. He didn't even have to think about it. He signed the title to me on friday. I'm so happy!  He's part of a huge social network of other Cameroonians, but he gave the car to me! This week I'll get the title registered in my name and get insurance, then I can start driving to work and delivering my cakes myself!

You can't beat free, right?  

One main blessing down, and a few more ( namely, a permanent full-time job with benefits) to do, but I'm not worried. I'll admit that a worry from time to time, but overall, I know that God is working behind the scenes, and I will triumph!

Happy Father's Day

Shout out to all the dads (and others fulfilling the role) doing at least 90%. Much respect. 

"She Spoke 2 Me"-Prince video

Nokia 2009

Friday, June 16, 2017

Just a thought

The last time I didn't even think about whether I looked like I gained weight  or the last time I laughed and smiled and didn't even think about hiding my imperfect teeth was when I was last in  Madison Wisconsin,  at my sister and brother in-law's home.

Family is everything. They love you regardless.

Hold on

God's timing is everything.

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Thursday, June 15, 2017

Charlamagne Tha God 'Black Privilege' Q&A Hosted By Crissle West

Question of the day

                        Do you talk or are you about that action?

Priorities 1-6

Slowly and surely.

It amazes me,
how supportive strangers can be.

I got 2 more subscriptions today to my cake business without even trying;

A friend of a friend of a friend had a slice of one of my cakes, and she asked if she could be part of the cake of the month club, and a friend who lives in Calgary mentioned my financial situation to his girlfriend, who felt bad. She sent me more than the cost of a yearly subscription- and she doesn't even like sweets. And she doesn't even want me to send anything.

I'm blessed.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Starting tomorrow

I said to myself a couple weeks ago that I was going to start saying hi to 10 strangers a day, but it just occurred to me that I hadn't said hi to anyone I didn't know, except to women I found attractive.

I will do this tomorrow. 


I just had a dream

and it made me smile. 

it was obviously a message because I normally wake up after nightmares and not immediately after dreams without external forces waking me up. I had to document it and go back to sleep, hoping that I could continue with the rest of the dream.

my wife and I were in  the waiting area of the hospital room. She was black. I was smiling at her. I couldn't see her from the neck up, but I was holding her hands. She was darker than me. I was happy. I was nervous. She said, " I know your first two choices were a black baby or a blasian baby. I'm glad I could comply."

Then a nurse grabbed us both by the hands and led us down a hall. There were crying babies. We stopped at a maternity ward and peered through the window. There were about 50 babies in the room. Every bed was draped in purple. 

"Paisley is in there, sleeping peacefully, despite all the crying babies.."

I said, "which one? Boy or girl?"

The nurse said," the one in the purple bed."  

I said "they're all purple."

The nurse said, "some are pink, some are blue, but there's only one in purple."

My wife said  "They're all purple."

The nurse said, " Let's go inside. You'll spot Paisley immediately. Paisley's been waiting for you both since you were born, Alieux. You''re about to be blessed. "

She led us inside the room--

That's when I woke up. 

After I wrote this blog entry, I knelt down beside my bed and I thanked God. I know, deep in my heart that my blessing is coming really soon. 

Dear Lord,   I am thanking You in advance. Amen. 

Friday, June 9, 2017

Bahamadia featuring Dwele - Beautiful Things

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The other D word

Just between me, you and God,

Once a day I tear up. Sometimes when I'm alone, I burst in to tears, and other times they just flow. I let it occur for about 30 seconds to a minute, then I force myself to stop and then I carry on with the day-to-day living. I just did that a few minutes ago. I sometimes feel better after I've had a good cry. I was looking at my LinkedIn profile ( thinking about how to improve it so that I stand out amongst  job recruiters and employers) and I was reading about 2 friends of mine who were sending out a thanks into the blogosphere to those who helped them find great positions with great companies, and while I am happy for them, I was also sad. Next thing I knew, I was tearing up. No one was around, so I let the tears flow for about 30 seconds before wiping eyes and logging off LinkedIn.
I used to think I was suffering from depression. I went to a counselor for a couple sessions and the conclusion was that I am not suffering from depression. It's just disappointment, and there is no prescription for that.

Thursday, June 8, 2017



A younger coworker once asked me what was the definition of white privilege. He asked me this question as he had reclined his chair in his cubicle next to mine, and was relaxing, with his feet on his desk. He was reading the paper. He did this every morning for about 30 minutes. every morning.  I told him " an example is, what you're doing right now. I could never get away with doing that."  It's like a lightbulb  went off in his head. He said, "that's right. you couldn't get away with doing this."

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

The Great Physician

The minute we stop trying to nurse our own wounds and let the Great Physician take over, that's when the real healing will begin!" ~ Joanna Faillace

Saturday, June 3, 2017

What is the realest thing about you?

First thing that came to mind is that I know I'm not as handsome as I wish I was ( I am not looking for compliments-just keeping it real) and that I have lots of flaws, so I try to have a personality to make up for it.  Hopefully that will draw people in. When asked about me, I want people to say "Alieux is a sweetheart. He's a really good guy and he makes me laugh."

That, at the very least, makes me happy. 

What is the realest thing about you?

Note to self


Some people will only include you if you're part of a group package. If it was up to them they wouldn't include you at all. Some people will make it obvious that they don't want to be bothered with you. And some will do it by accident.  It's called a Freudian slip.