Tuesday, August 22, 2017

That Melanin Tho


Ya Ya


Janet Jackson - Go Deep (Make Em' Bounce Mix) (Instrumental)


Janet Jackson-Someday Is Tonight(G Funk Remix)


#truth

There's a new app that lets you know if your friends are racist. It's called Facebook.

--Chris Rock.

True.

Thursday, August 17, 2017

Bryson Tiller - Exchange






"Lord please save her for me...do this one favor for me"


A couple weeks ago,  a friend made this post on Facebook:


'NFL to Black athletes:

N*gg*ers, stay in your place. You are to win games and keep us and team owners rich. That's it. Speak only when WE tell you to. Do what WE tell you to. Or else end up in the unemployment line. You understand me, boy?

Good...now go rack up 250 receiving yards. My country club friends started you this week on their fantasy football team.'


My comment was- 'I feel this post, 100%. A HUGE packer fan here I'm torn between not watching the season in protest, and watching it.'


His response to my comment was-'I'm not torn anymore. I can't watch or otherwise support that organization. As my friend Doc Sinn said, "I can't in good conscious support an organization that so blatantly exploits Black athletes and fans while showing a complete disregard for Black humanity.  I can't sit at 1 o'clock and cheer while in the back of my mind I know that a Black man was exiled for speaking against racial and social injustice.

There is no way I can sit in the stands or at a sports bar and cheer with fans who embrace rapists and murderers, but have nothing but hatred, venom, and vitriol for a Black man who stood up for what was right.  I can't watch star Black athletes cower, fearful of speaking out.  Can't do it.  Not going to.'




I feel his response  100% as well.


Though I'm a huge Green Bay Packer fan, I'm not watching this season for the same reason, until Colin Kaepernick becomes part of a team.


Amen.


Oh, and by the way-




I have friends, real life friends that were very upset and vocal about the photo on the bottom.... but they're quiet about the photo above... Someone Please explain.

BE (basement elevation)

"While I'm sittin' here waitin' on U know somebody somewhere's waitin' on me." -Marva Staples, Time Waits For No One

 About 20 years ago when I started a new job in Pewaukee Wisconsin, I received a sign-on bonus of a thousand dollars USD. That following weekend I gave my mother $400 cash. She was speechless at first, but then very happy for a few minutes. Then she was overwhelmed with sadness. She began talking about how my sister would never have given her $400, and about how recently she borrowed $20 from my sister that she had to pay back. She kept going on and on about how my sister hadn't done anything for her. I was disappointed. I had given her the money because I knew she needed it and because I love making her happy. I didn't know why she was obsessing over what my sister hadn't done and what she would never do.

I thought about myself recently; about how I'm saddened about the people whom I thought would come to my rescue at the lowest point in my life, when I should be happy about the people that stepped up to the plate, not just with money, but with simple regular texts to ask how I'm doing and to writing something nice and encouraging.

I have friends who are doing that. Why was I agonizing?

Not anymore.

Do you do that as well-? do you concern yourself with things about which you should not be concerned?

Friday, August 11, 2017

Question

If you could bring back one musician to do one album/cd, who would it be?


I would chose Prince ( duh).
And on that cd, I would want him to do a duet with Janet Jackson, of his song International Lover or her song What Have You Done For Me Lately.  
Or a duet with Jody Watley.
Or a duet with Chante Moore.
Or a duet with Mariah Carey
 Or a duet with  Erykah Badu
Or a duet with D'angelo
Or a duet with Raphael Saadiq

If I had a second choice, it would be John Coltrane.
If I had a third choice, it would be Luther Vandross If I had a fourth choice, it would be Minnie Ripperton May they all rest in heavenly peace

New Rule: What If Obama Said It? | Real Time with Bill Maher (HBO)


Thursday, August 3, 2017

The New Normal

While I am grateful that I have an hourly temp job that helps (barely) keep a roof over my head and keeps the ac on, keeps food on the table and keeps my phone on, the pay is crap in comparison to what I have been used to for the past 30 years.  My mom will be 75 in October and I would like to ask that her church plan a surprise party for her but I haven't mentioned it to her pastor yet, just in case I couldn't afford the plane ticket. I did have an interview for an underwriting position last week, and another one this coming Monday. I also had a phone interview for the position that I am currently working. The pay for this position I was told , is "a little more than what I am getting paid now."  I had to pretend I was interested in this hourly position. My heart is into getting back in to underwriting. 


Please, whatever the name of your God is, please pray to Him/Her on my behalf.


Please.


Thank you.

D'Angelo and Maya Rudolph's Prince Cover Band Princess Perform Touching ...


D'Angelo Voodoo Documentary


D'Angelo & Tavis Smiley PART 2 on PBS


D'Angelo & Tavis Smiley PART I on PBS


Saturday, July 22, 2017

Friday, July 21, 2017

That Melanin Tho


When I get married









She will walk down the aisle to this instrumental.
I've always said that. Since the day Under The Cherry Moon premiered.


I still say that.
When I hear this tune, I think that all the time.
When I get married, she will down the aisle to this instrumental.
God-willing.

Dear Lord,
I am more than ready ( emotionally and mentally) to meet her. I am sooooooooooo ready, Lord God.
Please put us in the right space so that we can meet each other.
I'm getting old and set in my ways.   Things need to change.
I need to change, I guess.
Walk or drive down different streets and avenues.
Take a different route to work or downtown.
Go to different churches.
Go to different coffee shops.
Shop at different grocery stores.
Make new friends that might have single friends.

Lord,
I am soooooooo ready.
I don't know what else to say that hasn't been said before-


(blogosphere- I'm sorry you have to read these type of posts from me occasionally)








A Life Quote

Friends are for a reason and a season:

when they give you a reason to dump them, that's the season.


- Wendy Williams





This quote gave me life, and it stopped me from agonizing over ( and blogging about) people who suddenly drop off the face of the earth for no reason.  Some at times when I need them.

Jody Watley - I'm The One You Need


Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Overheard on the train



" Keep in mind, these are the same people who, with a straight face, gave us Sarah Palin."

Sunday, July 16, 2017

true

I am learning all the time. My tombstone will be my diploma.  ― Eartha Kitt

Friday, July 14, 2017

Message


Yesterday when I was sitting down on the train on my way home from work, I watched as the train began to fill up with people at each stop when the doors open, and I offered my seat to any of the three woman standing in front of me. All three smiled, and two said they only had a few stops, and the other said she had been sitting down all day, thanks anyway. 
This lady behind me tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around. She said:
"What a nice gentleman!"
Me:   Thanks.
Her:   You were obviously raised to respect women.
Me:    True. I'd like to think that some gentleman would offer my mother or sister their seat.
Her:   What mosque do you attend?
Me:    I'm Christian.
Her:   Christian?
Me:   Yeah.
Her:  You're a Christian?
Me:   Yep.
Her:  That's odd.
Me:   How is it odd?
Her:   Because you offered those ladies your seat. Every time I've seen a man do gentlemanly things,
          they always end up being Muslim. Yesterday I saw a man-he looked like a priest, race a little girl to an empty seat and sat down.
Me:   I don't know what to say.




(silence) 

Are you woke?

I am.


What woke you up, and when did you wake up?







Thursday, July 13, 2017

Luke 2:40


I think words cut  deeper into your psyche ( and mess you up mentally) than  
hits, slaps, punches, being forced to drink a carton of spoiled chocolate milk, or being forced to get in a tub of scalding hot water.
(I know this)
fucking faggot. sissy, fucking cry baby, fucking mama's boy, loser, fucking punk fucking faggot. sissy, fucking cry baby, fucking mama's boy, loser, fucking punk fucking faggot. sissy, fucking cry baby, fucking mama's boy, loser, fucking punk fucking faggot. sissy, fucking cry baby, fucking mama's boy, loser, fucking punk STOP STUTTERING!
he would say
to
me
as if sissy 
faggot
or fucking crybaby
was my name
and then some.
and then some.
and then some.
and then-


Janet Jackson Ft Q Tip "Got Till Its Gone" Remix Pro. J Dilla


GIZMO ft. Nick Hakim "Lift Me Up" Official Music Video


Tuesday, July 11, 2017

#Facts

we celebrate the wrong thing.

I remember someone in particular ( I won't give the name) who, while he was failing in every class, knew the words to every single  rap song that was playing on the radio. In the room there were about 15 of us, gathered for a holiday party, and while I was shaking my head ( in my mind; I didn't want to be cussed out), everyone else was applauding him and giving each other high fives as if he had shown a report card filled with A's.

This one is fa' Dilla




Alhamdulillah Allah Jehovah                         
Yahweh Dios Ma'at Jah
Rastafari fyah dance, sex, music, hip-hop
It's bigger than religion
Hip-hop
It's bigger than my nigga
Hip-hop
It's bigger than the government
This one is fa' Dilla, hip-hop
We ain't dead said the children don't believe it
We just made ourselves invisible
Underwater, stove-top, blue flame scientists
Come out with your scales up
Get baptized in the ocean of the hungry
My niggas turn in to gods
Walls come tumblin'
Alhamdulillah Allah Jehovah
Yahweh Dios Ma'at Jah
Rastafari fyah dance, sex, music, hip-hop
It's bigger than religion
Hip-hop
It's bigger than my nigga
Hip-hop
It's bigger than the government
This one is the healer, hip-hop
Told you we ain't dead yet
We been livin' through your internet
You don't have to believe everything you think
We've been programmed wake up, we miss you
They call you indigo, we call you Africa
Go get baptized in the ocean of the people
Say reboot, refresh, restart
Fresh page, new day, o.g.'s, new key


rhonda clark - State Of Attraction - Between Friends


Friday, July 7, 2017

BJ the Chicago Kid - Turnin Me Up


Janet Jackson - French Blue


Me,

when a friend constantly encourages me to start a business and sell my baked goods because they love everything I make but they ain't never bought shit (and I've been selling my baked goods for a year now).

via GIPHY

CNN show asks: Is Portland so 'hip' and 'cool,' it's now hopelessly gentrified?

W. Kamau Bell, right, with Alex Bernson, left, in the Portland-filmed "Is it Cool to be Hip?" episode of the CNN documentary series, "United Shades of America." (CNN)
Is Portland now such a hot destination for young people to move to that the city's in danger of losing its soul? Has Portland earned a reputation as the whitest major city in America by forcing African Americans out to the margins, while gentrification transformed such boulevards as Alberta Street and Mississippi Avenue into boutique havens?
Those are just some of the questions raised in CNN's "United Shades of America," comedian and commentator W. Kamau Bell's documentary series.
In the Sunday, May 29 episode, titled "Is it Cool to be Hip?" Bell spends time in Portland, talking with community members about the changing face of the Rose City.
In prior episodes, Bell has visited members of the Ku Klux Klan in the South, walked the beat with police in Camden, New Jersey, and explored what it means to be Latino in the U.S.
"Gentrification is an issue that affects every major city," Bell says. Exploring the topic through Portland's experience made sense, Bell said in a recent phone conversation.
"I've sort of struggled with my own feelings about Portland," says Bell, who has performed here several times, at the Bridgetown Comedy Festival and in venues around town.
"This is a major city, and yet I'll be onstage at a comedy event, and it's all white people in the audience. The hipsters of Portland get really testy about that: 'It's not my fault!'"

But saying "it's not my fault," Bell adds, just means running away from thinking about Portland's overwhelming whiteness, and what it means.
"I've lived in San Francisco, Chicago, the East Bay of Oakland, and lived in New York for a few months," says Bell, who now lives in Berkeley. "Everywhere I've lived has dealt with gentrification. So when we started pitching ideas for episodes, whenever I've been in Portland, I've observed gentrification. But I've never heard where it comes from, or why there's the narrative - that even Portland is tired of - that it's the coolest place to live in the country? Why is it being labeled that, and what's the other side of cool?"
That meant, Bell says, coming to Portland, and visiting with some of its residents. In the "United Shades of America" episode, which was filmed last year, Bell talks with African Americans, hipsters, a developer and even, yes, Samantha Hess, Portland's well-publicized professional cuddler.
In the episode, Bell goes a Portland coffee shop, and meets Alex Bernson, a bearded, knit cap-wearing young man who was writing about coffee on his laptop. Bell asks Bernson if he considers himself a hipster. "No one does," Bernson says, adding that it's regarded as "kind of a dirty word." It's become a convenient slur, Bernson says, for millennials and people who work in coffee shops.
Bernson, as it happens, no longer lives in Portland. In a Twitter note, he says he grew up in Seattle, lived in Portland from 2008-2009 and 2013-2015 but recently moved to New York.
"The change for me was mostly about wanting a bigger city with more diversity and options," Bernson writes, adding that he loves Portland, even though "it has its problems, as does NYC and anywhere else."
In the "Is it Cool to be Hip?" episode, Bell also talks about how historically African American Portland neighborhoods became hot spots for new development, which brought rising housing prices that forced many longtime residents of color to move.
Bell meets with Pastor Donald Frazier, of Genesis Community Fellowship, in Northeast Portland, who talks about how members of his congregation have moved out of neighborhoods that were long home to African American families.

Before he's through, Bell also talks with singer Ural Thomas, and developer Ben Kaiser.
Toward the end of "Is it Cool to Be Hip?" Bell suggests that, in a city that's known for its bridges, a bridge needs to be built between the people moving in, and the people moving out.
On the phone, Bell says gentrification is a complex issue, as it can make neighborhoods nicer while still forcing out lower-income residents who can no longer afford to live there.
"I think we have to stop making government about profit," Bell says. "Just because your property values go up doesn't mean you have a better city. You have to value a sense of community over the value of money."
"United Shades of America" airs at 7 p.m., and repeats at 10 p.m., Sunday, May 29 on CNN
-- Kristi Turnquist
kturnquist@oregonian.com
503-221-8227
@Kristiturnquist

You already know how I feel about Portland. I'll just leave it at that.

I'll leave this here and walk away




















You see the white kids in this photo? Do you see the white kids in similar photos from the late 60s and early 70s?

Do you ever wonder what ever happened to those folks?

We always talk about what became of the Rosa Parks, the Malcoms, the Martins, the Bayard Rustins, the James Baldwins. What we rarely discuss is what became of those crowds of scowling white folk who spit on civil rights protestors, threw rocks, strung them up on trees, or simply showed up in opposition to black plight.

Well, I'll tell you. They became Board of Education superintendents, police chiefs, city council members, university deans of admission, landlords, mayors, congressmen, senators. They became your grandparents, your neighbors, CEOs of Fortune 500 companies, public traders, real estate tycoons, banking executives. They became the folks who put Ronald Reagan in office, the folks who perpetuated policies like the Nixon War on Drugs, they became the neo-dixiecrats who elected a prison expansionist like Clinton twice, who voted to send us into two trillion dollar wars, they raised the children who harass women and minorities on the internet, they raised the children who run your local campus Republicans chapter, they are the Donald J. Trump political base, they gave way to the alternative right, the Richard Spencers, the Breitbarts, the Daily Stormers, the Stormfront dot orgs.

While it's important to remember and memorialize black struggle and never stop fighting for equality, it's also important to remember that these people are still running our country. Next time you hear someone say "Let's take our country back", I want you to think about this picture.....this is what they want back. This is the "great" America they want to restore.

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

Big Sean - Moves


The Shortest Distance Between 2 points


"I know the shortest distance between two points, is it a straight line." 
       --Mathematics, George Clinton  

"Straight talk makes for straight understanding."
-Wendy Williams

We all have our persona. It’s a necessary part of our personality. It makes life and relationships run smoothly. With our persona, we maintain our place in society and still enjoy liberty within it. But more often than not, we unconsciously get caught up in maintaining our place and positioning and we consciously circumvent being truthful with ourselves and others. We avoid being “straight up.” How can we invite more straight talk into our lives? By getting to the point with yourself. I challenge myself by doing what I call “bottom lining.” What’s really going on in the story I’m creating for myself in this situation? Why is this important to me? What happens if I ignore this? Powerful questions like this elicit the truth that lies within me. Encouraging myself to answer with a simple bottom line (as opposed to a long winded story) forces me to draw forth what needs to come out. Practicing straight talk with ourselves reveals our truth. And using a simple sentence makes it easier for us to share and be received by others. Don’t you often find that when you get lost in your story, the point you wish to make gets misinterpreted or lost altogether? When we can find our truth while being economical with our words, we have more possibility in creating understanding.

Sunday, July 2, 2017

That Melanin Tho



Naomi

Theory/ Practice

Today a friend of mine was giving me advice on how to find love, how to maintain it and how to keep it. I was quiet for a minute before I reminded him that at his young age of 35, he's been divorced 3 times already, he has 5 kids, and his current girlfriend doesn't even know he can't have kids because he had a vasectomy. They've been dating exclusively for 2 months now and she doesn't even know he has kids.
His response was " I'm better in theory than in practice."

Alot of people are better in theory than in practice. I try not to advise anyone on anything at which I am not good.

How about you?

Friday, June 30, 2017

Halle Berry on Her Oscar Win: It ‘Meant Nothing’ for Hollywood Diversity

Halle Berry became the first black woman to win an Academy Award for best actress in 2002 for her performance in “Monster’s Ball.” Fifteen years later, and she’s still the only woman of color to receive the coveted award. In a recent Teen Vogue interview at a panel at the Cannes Lions International Festival of Creativity, the actress divulged her thoughts on the Academy’s lack of diversity progress, most notably the 2016 Oscar nominations, which drew criticism for failing to represent nominees of color and sparked the hashtag #OscarsSoWhite. “I sat there and I really thought, ‘Wow, that moment really meant nothing. It meant nothing. I thought it meant something, but I think it meant nothing,'” she said of her own historic win in light of the 2016 nominations. Since her win, eight women of color have been nominated in the best-actress category.

Ingrid Chavez - Heaven Must Be Near


Dr. Umar Johnson Discusses Inter-Racial Marriage, President Trump, Self-...


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Just a thought

I'm excited, because now that I have a car, I don't have to take public transportation to get to church. I can drive there now.  I can serve God with like-minded people ( and perhaps find my wife).


Just a thought.

Aaliyah - One In A Million Medley (BJ The Chicago Kid cover)


BJ The Chicago Kid - Good Luv'n


BJ the Chicago Kid - Turnin Me Up


Oddisee - Like Really | A COLORS SHOW


Thursday, June 29, 2017

Kendrick Lamar - DNA.


Gary Vaynerchuk Discusses Why Social Media And Networking Are The Most I...


Good Times August.20.2000 Documentary


Song in my head


What Do You Want To Be?



"Life is not having and getting, but being and becoming."
 ~ Mathew Arnold


I don't know why, but when I saw this quote, it was like a lightbulb turned on, in my head, and I smiled. We spend a lot of time seeking things. Getting things, and in the end, regretting being things. For example, if I was on my dying bed today, I wouldn't be concerned about the beautiful, delicious cakes I've made or the fantastic short stories or poems I've written. My first thoughts would be- was I a good uncle, or brother, or son, or friend, or Godfather or husband or father?  Was I good and funny and reliable to the people I claim to love?  That's what' is important to me.


How about you?

Monday, June 26, 2017

Note to self


You haven't been listening



I was showing someone pictures of my first  and second trip to Paris, and after looking at about 300 pictures, she looks at me and said, "you're lonely, aren't you? All this time, I thought you wanted to be alone."  I was speechless- too dumbfounded to respond. She could tell from the pictures, but not from knowing me and the things in life that I long for and haven't had luck attaining?




(If you ask me questions in which I feel you-if anyone, should know the answer, then that means that you really don't know me, and it makes me sad because it means that you haven't been listening. I thought it was obvious...)

A few minutes ago

I jumped from the roof of a 97 storey building. As I reached the 10th story, the speed at which I was falling had slowed down drastically, and I was able to land on the sidewalk gently, and was able to walk away before I woke up and made this blog entry.

This dream has to mean something, right?


Sunday, June 25, 2017

UNIVERSAL PLAN

"...What you give is what you get...Universal Plan..."




Jill Scott - 'Cant explain 42nd Street Happenstance'


What musicians are you listening to currently?

Jordan Rakei Mary Letoya Kendrick Lamarr Nick Hakim NxWorries

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Maybe... just maybe

The experience of the journey has to beat the fear of failure... or you might just live your life your life in regret.Don't take my word for it, go volunteer at a nursing home for a day or 2 so you can experience what regret looks like... if you need a push.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

A Good Friday

GOD IS SOOOOO GOOD!  

I CAN PRAISE HIM ALL DAY AND IT WILL STILL NOT BE ENOUGH!

I got a car on friday, and I didn't have to pay a penny for it! A nice used vehicle.  My friend Terrance and his family are moving back to Africa-Nigeria namely, and he was going to donate it to church or a charity, and I told him I needed a car, and he gave it to me instead. He didn't even have to think about it. He signed the title to me on friday. I'm so happy!  He's part of a huge social network of other Cameroonians, but he gave the car to me! This week I'll get the title registered in my name and get insurance, then I can start driving to work and delivering my cakes myself!

You can't beat free, right?  

One main blessing down, and a few more ( namely, a permanent full-time job with benefits) to do, but I'm not worried. I'll admit that a worry from time to time, but overall, I know that God is working behind the scenes, and I will triumph!


Happy Father's Day

Shout out to all the dads (and others fulfilling the role) doing at least 90%. Much respect. 



"She Spoke 2 Me"-Prince video

Nokia 2009

Friday, June 16, 2017

Just a thought



The last time I didn't even think about whether I looked like I gained weight  or the last time I laughed and smiled and didn't even think about hiding my imperfect teeth was when I was last in  Madison Wisconsin,  at my sister and brother in-law's home.


Family is everything. They love you regardless.

Hold on








God's timing is everything.

Elizabeth Banks Blasts Spielberg For Lack of Female Leads, Forgets 'The ...


Thursday, June 15, 2017

Charlamagne Tha God 'Black Privilege' Q&A Hosted By Crissle West


Question of the day









                        Do you talk or are you about that action?

Priorities 1-6

Slowly and surely.

It amazes me,
how supportive strangers can be.


I got 2 more subscriptions today to my cake business without even trying;

A friend of a friend of a friend had a slice of one of my cakes, and she asked if she could be part of the cake of the month club, and a friend who lives in Calgary mentioned my financial situation to his girlfriend, who felt bad. She sent me more than the cost of a yearly subscription- and she doesn't even like sweets. And she doesn't even want me to send anything.

I'm blessed.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Starting tomorrow


I said to myself a couple weeks ago that I was going to start saying hi to 10 strangers a day, but it just occurred to me that I hadn't said hi to anyone I didn't know, except to women I found attractive.

I will do this tomorrow. 

#onehundredpercenttrue


I just had a dream

and it made me smile. 


it was obviously a message because I normally wake up after nightmares and not immediately after dreams without external forces waking me up. I had to document it and go back to sleep, hoping that I could continue with the rest of the dream.

my wife and I were in  the waiting area of the hospital room. She was black. I was smiling at her. I couldn't see her from the neck up, but I was holding her hands. She was darker than me. I was happy. I was nervous. She said, " I know your first two choices were a black baby or a blasian baby. I'm glad I could comply."

Then a nurse grabbed us both by the hands and led us down a hall. There were crying babies. We stopped at a maternity ward and peered through the window. There were about 50 babies in the room. Every bed was draped in purple. 

"Paisley is in there, sleeping peacefully, despite all the crying babies.."

I said, "which one? Boy or girl?"

The nurse said," the one in the purple bed."  

I said "they're all purple."

The nurse said, "some are pink, some are blue, but there's only one in purple."

My wife said  "They're all purple."

The nurse said, " Let's go inside. You'll spot Paisley immediately. Paisley's been waiting for you both since you were born, Alieux. You''re about to be blessed. "


She led us inside the room--

That's when I woke up. 

After I wrote this blog entry, I knelt down beside my bed and I thanked God. I know, deep in my heart that my blessing is coming really soon. 

Dear Lord,   I am thanking You in advance. Amen. 

Friday, June 9, 2017

Bahamadia featuring Dwele - Beautiful Things

#TrumpLiesMatter: Trump Spin Room Reacts To Comey Testimony, Says Trump ...


The other D word


Just between me, you and God,



Once a day I tear up. Sometimes when I'm alone, I burst in to tears, and other times they just flow. I let it occur for about 30 seconds to a minute, then I force myself to stop and then I carry on with the day-to-day living. I just did that a few minutes ago. I sometimes feel better after I've had a good cry. I was looking at my LinkedIn profile ( thinking about how to improve it so that I stand out amongst  job recruiters and employers) and I was reading about 2 friends of mine who were sending out a thanks into the blogosphere to those who helped them find great positions with great companies, and while I am happy for them, I was also sad. Next thing I knew, I was tearing up. No one was around, so I let the tears flow for about 30 seconds before wiping eyes and logging off LinkedIn.
I used to think I was suffering from depression. I went to a counselor for a couple sessions and the conclusion was that I am not suffering from depression. It's just disappointment, and there is no prescription for that.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

The UMMAH!

Privilege


A younger coworker once asked me what was the definition of white privilege. He asked me this question as he had reclined his chair in his cubicle next to mine, and was relaxing, with his feet on his desk. He was reading the paper. He did this every morning for about 30 minutes. every morning.  I told him " an example is, what you're doing right now. I could never get away with doing that."  It's like a lightbulb  went off in his head. He said, "that's right. you couldn't get away with doing this."





Wednesday, June 7, 2017

The Great Physician

The minute we stop trying to nurse our own wounds and let the Great Physician take over, that's when the real healing will begin!" ~ Joanna Faillace

Saturday, June 3, 2017

What is the realest thing about you?


First thing that came to mind is that I know I'm not as handsome as I wish I was ( I am not looking for compliments-just keeping it real) and that I have lots of flaws, so I try to have a personality to make up for it.  Hopefully that will draw people in. When asked about me, I want people to say "Alieux is a sweetheart. He's a really good guy and he makes me laugh."

That, at the very least, makes me happy. 

What is the realest thing about you?

Note to self


#facts



Some people will only include you if you're part of a group package. If it was up to them they wouldn't include you at all. Some people will make it obvious that they don't want to be bothered with you. And some will do it by accident.  It's called a Freudian slip.

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Because Salli Richardson-Whitfield


4 things

If you could delete 4 things from this earth, what would they be?

Mine are


  1. White Privilege
  2. The IRS
  3. Bad Credit
  4. The fact that my birth records are sealed by the State of New York



What would your 4 things be? 

Monday, May 22, 2017

That Melanin Tho


I am.


Never push loyal people to the point where they don't give a damn.

-Peter Drucker

Loyal people are worth much more than their weight in gold. 

I know I am.