Sunday, June 25, 2017

What musicians are you listening to currently?

Jordan Rakei Mary Letoya Kendrick Lamarr Nick Hakim NxWorries

Saturday, June 24, 2017

De La Soul - A Roller Skating Jam Named Saturdays

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Maybe... just maybe

The experience of the journey has to beat the fear of failure... or you might just live your life your life in regret.Don't take my word for it, go volunteer at a nursing home for a day or 2 so you can experience what regret looks like... if you need a push.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

A Good Friday



I got a car on friday, and I didn't have to pay a penny for it! A nice used vehicle.  My friend Terrance and his family are moving back to Africa-Nigeria namely, and he was going to donate it to church or a charity, and I told him I needed a car, and he gave it to me instead. He didn't even have to think about it. He signed the title to me on friday. I'm so happy!  He's part of a huge social network of other Cameroonians, but he gave the car to me! This week I'll get the title registered in my name and get insurance, then I can start driving to work and delivering my cakes myself!

You can't beat free, right?  

One main blessing down, and a few more ( namely, a permanent full-time job with benefits) to do, but I'm not worried. I'll admit that a worry from time to time, but overall, I know that God is working behind the scenes, and I will triumph!

Happy Father's Day

Shout out to all the dads (and others fulfilling the role) doing at least 90%. Much respect. 

"She Spoke 2 Me"-Prince video

Nokia 2009

Friday, June 16, 2017

Just a thought

The last time I didn't even think about whether I looked like I gained weight  or the last time I laughed and smiled and didn't even think about hiding my imperfect teeth was when I was last in  Madison Wisconsin,  at my sister and brother in-law's home.

Family is everything. They love you regardless.

Hold on

God's timing is everything.

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Thursday, June 15, 2017

Charlamagne Tha God 'Black Privilege' Q&A Hosted By Crissle West

Question of the day

                        Do you talk or are you about that action?

Priorities 1-6

Slowly and surely.

It amazes me,
how supportive strangers can be.

I got 2 more subscriptions today to my cake business without even trying;

A friend of a friend of a friend had a slice of one of my cakes, and she asked if she could be part of the cake of the month club, and a friend who lives in Calgary mentioned my financial situation to his girlfriend, who felt bad. She sent me more than the cost of a yearly subscription- and she doesn't even like sweets. And she doesn't even want me to send anything.

I'm blessed.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Starting tomorrow

I said to myself a couple weeks ago that I was going to start saying hi to 10 strangers a day, but it just occurred to me that I hadn't said hi to anyone I didn't know, except to women I found attractive.

I will do this tomorrow. 


I just had a dream

and it made me smile. 

it was obviously a message because I normally wake up after nightmares and not immediately after dreams without external forces waking me up. I had to document it and go back to sleep, hoping that I could continue with the rest of the dream.

my wife and I were in  the waiting area of the hospital room. She was black. I was smiling at her. I couldn't see her from the neck up, but I was holding her hands. She was darker than me. I was happy. I was nervous. She said, " I know your first two choices were a black baby or a blasian baby. I'm glad I could comply."

Then a nurse grabbed us both by the hands and led us down a hall. There were crying babies. We stopped at a maternity ward and peered through the window. There were about 50 babies in the room. Every bed was draped in purple. 

"Paisley is in there, sleeping peacefully, despite all the crying babies.."

I said, "which one? Boy or girl?"

The nurse said," the one in the purple bed."  

I said "they're all purple."

The nurse said, "some are pink, some are blue, but there's only one in purple."

My wife said  "They're all purple."

The nurse said, " Let's go inside. You'll spot Paisley immediately. Paisley's been waiting for you both since you were born, Alieux. You''re about to be blessed. "

She led us inside the room--

That's when I woke up. 

After I wrote this blog entry, I knelt down beside my bed and I thanked God. I know, deep in my heart that my blessing is coming really soon. 

Dear Lord,   I am thanking You in advance. Amen. 

Friday, June 9, 2017

Bahamadia featuring Dwele - Beautiful Things

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The other D word

Just between me, you and God,

Once a day I tear up. Sometimes when I'm alone, I burst in to tears, and other times they just flow. I let it occur for about 30 seconds to a minute, then I force myself to stop and then I carry on with the day-to-day living. I just did that a few minutes ago. I sometimes feel better after I've had a good cry. I was looking at my LinkedIn profile ( thinking about how to improve it so that I stand out amongst  job recruiters and employers) and I was reading about 2 friends of mine who were sending out a thanks into the blogosphere to those who helped them find great positions with great companies, and while I am happy for them, I was also sad. Next thing I knew, I was tearing up. No one was around, so I let the tears flow for about 30 seconds before wiping eyes and logging off LinkedIn.
I used to think I was suffering from depression. I went to a counselor for a couple sessions and the conclusion was that I am not suffering from depression. It's just disappointment, and there is no prescription for that.

Thursday, June 8, 2017



A younger coworker once asked me what was the definition of white privilege. He asked me this question as he had reclined his chair in his cubicle next to mine, and was relaxing, with his feet on his desk. He was reading the paper. He did this every morning for about 30 minutes. every morning.  I told him " an example is, what you're doing right now. I could never get away with doing that."  It's like a lightbulb  went off in his head. He said, "that's right. you couldn't get away with doing this."

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

The Great Physician

The minute we stop trying to nurse our own wounds and let the Great Physician take over, that's when the real healing will begin!" ~ Joanna Faillace

Saturday, June 3, 2017

What is the realest thing about you?

First thing that came to mind is that I know I'm not as handsome as I wish I was ( I am not looking for compliments-just keeping it real) and that I have lots of flaws, so I try to have a personality to make up for it.  Hopefully that will draw people in. When asked about me, I want people to say "Alieux is a sweetheart. He's a really good guy and he makes me laugh."

That, at the very least, makes me happy. 

What is the realest thing about you?

Note to self


Some people will only include you if you're part of a group package. If it was up to them they wouldn't include you at all. Some people will make it obvious that they don't want to be bothered with you. And some will do it by accident.  It's called a Freudian slip.

Friday, June 2, 2017

Meshell N'Degeocello - Trust


If you could bring back one musician to do one album/cd, who would it be?

I would chose Prince ( duh).
And on that cd, I would want him to do a duet with Janet Jackson, of his song International Lover or her song What Have You Done For Me Lately.  
Or a duet with Jody Watley.
Or a duet with Chante Moore.
Or a duet with Mariah Carey
 Or a duet with  Erykah Badu
Or a duet with D'angelo
Or a duet with Raphael Saadiq

If I had a second choice, it would be John Coltrane.
If I had a third choice, it would be Luther Vandross If I had a fourth choice, it would be Minnie Ripperton May they all rest in heavenly peace

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Because Salli Richardson-Whitfield

4 things

If you could delete 4 things from this earth, what would they be?

Mine are

  1. White Privilege
  2. The IRS
  3. Bad Credit
  4. The fact that my birth records are sealed by the State of New York

What would your 4 things be? 

Sunday, May 21, 2017

lost in translation

i'm beginning to wonder if being asked to exchange contact information means i don't want to communicate with you at all,  in another language.

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

I suppose

I should do some dating. 

Long term goal is to find love, to find a woman with whom to build a tribe. I've been trying to wait until I could afford to date, but I should at least get some practice as I realize I'm getting set in my ways.  I need to change my routine of going to work, then the gym then home to make dinner, watch tv, going to bed and repeating the cycle all while getting old. But I live in Oregon, and the type of women I go for are so rare I may need to import them from Northern California. 

Loyle Carner - Florence [Ft. Kwes] (Official Video)


When people do the things that they say they're gonna do, that's cool.

Sunday, May 14, 2017


I can't remember the last time I

Kissed someone
Hugged someone
Had a date
Had sex

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Pardon this rant

if you too busy to respond to a text  which is the easiest and quickest form of communication there is, just admit that you don't want to be bothered with me so I can delete your contact information so that I won't make the mistake of calling or texting you again.  Sometimes a friend will pop in my head while I am at work, and I'll text them. saying " I'm pretty busy but you just popped in my head, and I wanted to say hey."  They will understand and may either respond with a smileyface or message saying " I'm good. we'll chat later."
That means alot to me.  Not getting a response at all?  That's foul. 

That is all. 

Monday, May 8, 2017

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Mary J. Blige - Glow Up (Audio) ft. Quavo, DJ Khaled, Missy Elliott

This right here!
fiya... Mary always come through when going through something....

My top 5

in this order.

yes, I know it's sappy, but I'm all about love and I'm not ashamed.

(which is ironic, considering that I'm chronically single)
Endless Love
  - Jean Harris and I sang this duet for our final for our voice class at university ( we got an A). This is also my favorite movie of all time.
Still A Thrill
   -I have pics of me at the place Jody Watley made this video- The Paris Opera House

Thank You For Loving Me

Rock With You

Surprised there are no Prince or Janet Jackson songs in my top 5?  I'm surprised too. Jody Watley's  Still A Thrill comes close, considering it's produced by Andre Cymone, Prince's child-hood best friend and was in Prince's first band.


MJB! I wasn't ready!

what I want to do

everytime a coworker tongue-kisses my boss's ass and the ass of every fulltime employee in the department every single day:


Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Mary J Blige - I Found My Everything

I'm going to stop saying if I ever get married,   and say when I get married, because whatever we say it goes out into the universe.

When I get married,  Prince's Venus di Milo will be playing as she walks down the aisle,  but this right here...this song, will be the first song my bride and I will dance to...

WHEN  I get married.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017


A special message from Janet for her fans.


The Elliptical

Thanks to Sude and Hamid, 2 graphic designers from, these are my choices of covers for my novella, 'The Elliptical',  coming soon to your Amazon Kindle.

Yes, a parachute figures prominently in this revengeful thriller, but which one to use?

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Mary J Blige not lookn

Morris Day - Over That Rainbow

I'll leave this here and walk away

You see the white kids in this photo? Do you see the white kids in similar photos from the late 60s and early 70s?

Do you ever wonder what ever happened to those folks?

We always talk about what became of the Rosa Parks, the Malcoms, the Martins, the Bayard Rustins, the James Baldwins. What we rarely discuss is what became of those crowds of scowling white folk who spit on civil rights protestors, threw rocks, strung them up on trees, or simply showed up in opposition to black plight.

Well, I'll tell you. They became Board of Education superintendents, police chiefs, city council members, university deans of admission, landlords, mayors, congressmen, senators. They became your grandparents, your neighbors, CEOs of Fortune 500 companies, public traders, real estate tycoons, banking executives. They became the folks who put Ronald Reagan in office, the folks who perpetuated policies like the Nixon War on Drugs, they became the neo-dixiecrats who elected a prison expansionist like Clinton twice, who voted to send us into two trillion dollar wars, they raised the children who harass women and minorities on the internet, they raised the children who run your local campus Republicans chapter, they are the Donald J. Trump political base, they gave way to the alternative right, the Richard Spencers, the Breitbarts, the Daily Stormers, the Stormfront dot orgs.

While it's important to remember and memorialize black struggle and never stop fighting for equality, it's also important to remember that these people are still running our country. Next time you hear someone say "Let's take our country back", I want you to think about this picture.....this is what they want back. This is the "great" America they want to restore.

Thursday, April 27, 2017

I can't complain

I'm feeling blessed.
I don't have a full-time job, but I'm able to pay my rent, kept the lights on, buy groceries, keep my phone on, and maintain somewhat of a social life. My life currently isn't what I planned, but God is taking care of me and I would like to think of this as a holding pattern until the blessing He wants me to have  is ready for me.

I'm blessed, and I won't complain. Today

Sunday, April 23, 2017

Henrietta Lacks

Henrietta Lacks — her fictional HBO character (left) and the real woman behind the cells that changed science. HBO/Harvard University
Now an HBO® Film starring Oprah Winfrey and Rose Byrne #1 NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER

Her name was Henrietta Lacks, but scientists know her as HeLa. She was a poor black tobacco farmer whose cells—taken without her knowledge in 1951—became one of the most important tools in medicine, vital for developing the polio vaccine, cloning, gene mapping, and more. Henrietta's cells have been bought and sold by the billions, yet she remains virtually unknown, and her family can't afford health insurance. This phenomenal New York Times bestseller tells a riveting story of the collision between ethics, race, and medicine; of scientific discovery and faith healing; and of a daughter consumed with questions about the mother she never knew.
When you get surgery or have a mole removed, and there’s leftover tissue or blood, there’s a chance that it might not be discarded. It might live on in a lab somewhere, available to researchers, unbeknownst to you. Your doctors didn’t ask you if you wanted to donate your cells. They didn’t have to. As long as your specimens are “de-identified” — meaning your name and other personal information are no longer attached to them anymore — they’re fair game.This practice went on for decades without much controversy — until the bestselling book The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks by Rebecca Skloot came along in 2010. The story sparked a debate among the public, researchers, and bioethicists about whether this practice is ethical — and whether the benefits to science truly outweigh the potential harms to individuals whose donations may come back to haunt them.

It saddens me- the many contributions black people had made that we don't even know about; stories that are not in history books. If I ever have children, they will know everything about black people that are not in the history books. I will educate them myself.