Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Dark & Lovely

Let's Get Crazy - Evelyn Champagne King/ Andre Cymone

Esperanza Spalding Performs 'Good Lava'

I love her. She's from here (Portland).   She's obviously been listening to Joni Mitchell.

I had a dream

Early Monday morning, I had a dream that might have been a message. I'm not sure.

I looked outside the window. I don't recall having seen a clock but I knew it was shortly after midnight. The sky was dark as you would expect, but the sun was shining. I'm sure it was the sun. It was a huge yellow fiery ball. What else could it have been?  I wondered why it didn't illuminate the rest of the sky. Anyway, as I looked at it, my nephew was trying to get my attention and I was ignoring him.
I turned around, and, you know like, how when governments have these huge shelters they set up in gymnasiums and stadiums to temporarily house people when earthquakes, hurricanes and another natural disasters have ravaged cities, towns, and villages? That was what I saw when I turned around.
When I looked outside the window again, I saw a huge metropolitan area rise up, slowly folding onto itself. It was hurtling towards us. I saw the tops of skyscrapers, homes, highways, slowly rising.
I turned around. The shelter was dimly lit. There were sofas all over the place. For some strange reason, I wasn't scared at all.  There was a guy who was obviously scared. I can't remember how he was reacting. I just remember he was scared. There were two women about my age, and they were just relaxing on the sofa as if was a normal day. It was quiet. I don't recall seeing anyone else.

And then I woke up.

I mentioned this to a coworker who said that God was telling me not to be scared.

I don't know.  That dream was so odd; too prolific to not mean anything.

What are your thoughts?

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Alice Russell

This, right here

1, 2, and 3.

A couple weeks ago, I saw a position on LinkedIn for which I was qualified. It was with one of my company's competitors.  Thanking God when I saw it, I immediately applied for it.  Within a week, I received one of those canned rejection letters that went along the lines of their having received quite a few applications for it, blah blah blah, and I looked for the word 'unfortunately.'  My heart sank.

But only for a few seconds.

Immediately, I smiled, saying to myself that God has something better for me. I said to God: "I don't want anything that You don't want me to have, Amen."

I was surprised that I reacted the way I did. I realized that I'm practicing what I preach to myself all the time. I hope to keep it up.

I saw a poster online that said God has three responses to prayer; 1 is- yes. 2 is- not yet, and 3 is- I have something better in mind.

Hope you have a blessed day!

Song in my head ...Jodeci - Get On Up

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Je suis fatigue

I just wanna fall in love, get married , have kids, have a great rest of my life, and die so I can get some sleep.

I'm tired.

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Note to Self

Nothing is ever as it seems. Challenges come so we can grow and be prepared for things we are not equipped to handle now. We need to learn to face our challenges with faith, prepared to learn, willing to make changes, and if necessary, to let go.
-Iyanla Vanzant.

Have a blessed week!

BE (basement elevation)

Friday, March 11, 2016


Was a good day, thank you Jesus!

I've jumped through a million and one hoops with my eyes closed while balancing a hula hoop around my waist while juggling 8 balls on each hand and my boss didn't complain about why I wasn't balancing 2 hula hoops and doing  a somersault and a back flip at the same time like nobody else can-

Sunday, March 6, 2016



a message?

I've not been sleeping well lately. There's been some drama going on at work, and though I've been praying about it; though I know that God has my back and that I know He didn't bring me this far to leave me, there's a small part of me that still worries they will succeed.

I had a strange dream early this morning. I think it might be a two-part dream. What I remember first about it was being relieved that something or someone that tried to hold me back had failed. I don't remember what or who it was, but then, I was in the kitchen. It was dark, and I was grabbing my boots to head upstairs to my bedroom and suddenly someone turned on a waterhose. In my dream Iwas thinking it was a powerhose, and the spray of water was so powerful that I couldn't move forward, for a few minutes. Then it stopped and as I was able to reach the downstairs bathroom on my way upstairs. I had planned to look inside it for the person who was spraying the water. Then I remembered looking in the small closet next to it, but then I woke up.   It was at 4 in the morning. it spooked me. I turned on the light in the bathroom because I didnt want to sleep in darkness.
It was very strange. It's symbolic of what's going on at work though.  Someone is trying to hold me back.

But thanks be to God, that it wasn't permanent, and I was able to move forward in the dream.

Please pray for me.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

I haven't forgotten!

Hey people!

I haven't forgotten to blog. I've been exhausted. I've been having to put in extra hours at work- staying late, trying to squeeze 16 hours of work in a 12 hour day, and even working full day Saturdays. There is no rest for the weary. I don't even have the energy to stay awake to read work-related material on the way home, much less to work out. I hardly have the time to get a full night's sleep. And there are other work-related issues for which I need your prayers.