Monday, August 31, 2015


Jazmine Sullivan - Forever Don't Last (Official Video)

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Tell Me Something Good

That melanin tho

Tell Me Something Good

Teaching our own children... Taking care of our own community...

The Oakland Community School (OCS) was one of the most well-known and well-loved programs of the Black Panther Party. Point 5 of the Black Panther Party’s original 1966 Ten Point Platform and Program, emphasized the need to provide an education that, among other things, taught African American and poor people about their history in the United States.

Thursday, August 27, 2015

That Melanin Tho

Be careful

Busta Rhymes - The Coming [Full Album]

keepin' it hundred

There is nothing I would not do for those who are really my friends. I have no notion of loving people by halves, it is not my nature.

--Jane Austen, Northanger Abbey

This quote defines me, one hundred percent. Anyone I have ever loved, friends, family, girlfriends, know that I am in it 100%. There is never even a question.

T B T .... Koffee Brown , Lil Mo, Mint Condition, En Vogue

Back there


                 One of the good things about the past is that it's always behind you. Leave it there.

                                                --alieux casey-george

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

On forgiveness

“If you put your hand into a fire, does anyone have to tell you to move it? Do you have to decide? No: When your hand starts to burn, it moves. You don’t have to direct it; the hand moves itself. In the same way, once you understand, through inquiry, that an untrue thought causes suffering, you move away from it.”

--Byron Katie

I ended a friendship two years ago.

Though I had instantly forgiven him, I decided he was to no longer be part of my life. Every morning I pray that God please subtract from my life people who serve no purpose in my life and who could care less if I lived or died, and to please add to my life people who will help me to be what He and I want me to be, or someone I can be of help or some kind of inspiration. Sometimes when the wrong people are still in my life, I believe that God will make it plain that I need to walk away from said person, and that was what God did.

Anyway, I had forgotten all about this former friend, until I saw him today. He was walking down the street. He had divorce papers in his hand; he was served the divorce papers at his job. I wasn't rude or anything. I did expect to only say hi and go on about my business, but he wanted to talk for a few minutes, so I obliged.

He apologized for taking my friendship for granted and for not being there when I needed him though I was always at his beck and call for any of his emergencies. I thanked him for apolgizing. He said that his wife left him and that all of his friends had distanced themselves from him. This didn't come as a surprise. He asked me to forgive him and I told him I had forgiven him that same day. He asked why I had forgiven him,  and I told him that tomorrow isn't promised to any of us, and if I died that next day,  God might have asked me if I had held a grudge against anyone and if I had forgiven everyone for everything. I want to be able to say yes.
He looked relieved. He said he had grown up in the past few months.

Also, for selfish reasons; if I ever do someone wrong, either intentional or unintentional, I would like to be forgiven just as quickly.

Then he asked for a favor. 

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

I wonder....

if she's in Paris.

or in Abidjan. The Ivory Coast:

to where the majority of my DNA can be traced.

I will go there in 2017.


Pistachio Cardamom Cake

I made this for a friend's birthday. He invited me to his party over the weekend but I had to go to Seattle ( a friend's pregnant wife had a craving for my maple bacon biscuits and chorizo sausage gravy)  so I baked it last night and brought  it to his department (along with a handful of business cards which he gave to every one of his coworkers):
A Pistachio Cardamom Cake

Avocado Chocolate Chip Cake

A friend in the Sales Dept, always gives me rides to work when I bring in my baked goods, but she is allergic to lots of things so she can never partake in anything I bring in (she's on a very strict diet) and I wanted to give her a gift since she always refuses gas money. She said her daughter loved the slice of avocado chocolate chip cake that she brought home once and has been asking about it. So I made one for her birthday this weekend. She was very happy. 

Friday, August 14, 2015

49 tho?

Happy Birthday to the best proof that there is a God;

His greatest creation;

Halle Maria Berry

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Chaka Khan feat. George Benson - The End Of A Love Affair

Have a good day

It's been a very busy, stressful, chaotic week at work, and in about 30 minutes, I have a 4-hour meeting to try to squeeze into my 8 hour work day, to learn something new (that I can add to my resume).

I'm not looking forward to it. No one in my department is looking forward to it.  Anyway, enough with the venting.I've been listening to Chante Moore, Diana Ross, Luther Vandross, and Anthony Hamilton this morning, to relax me.

This is an old Diana Ross song, from The Boss album, produced by Ashford & Simpson. I could hear this song multiple times in a row.

Anway, I should be making use of this time before the meeting.

Have a good day.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

D'Angelo Live Concert Atlanta 2015

Last night

I made this since I had a few blueberries left: 
Vanilla Bean with blueberry creme between each layer and as frosting. I gave it to a neighbor. She was so excited to get it.

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

10 Things I'll Do.

I decided that I'm

  1.  going to go to the gym 5 days a week, whether I want to or not.  
  2.  going to eat significantly less meat as of right now ( I just finished my last bowl of chili with beef).
  3.  going to get off the bus in the evenings about 4 stops before my stop and walk that extra mile home.
  4.  going to treat myself to one dessert once a week  rather than every day.
  5.  going to watch no more than 90 minutes of tv a day and be in bed by 10 from sunday to thursday night.
  6.  going to clean out the garage and sell the things I don't want or need anymore.
  7.  going to edit The Elliptical.
  8.  going to write the outline for Slits for the Eyes.
  9.  going to work on Substitute for the gods.
  10.  going to dance, even if in my bedroom by myself.


I will acknowledge your existence the way you acknowledge mine;

as if you were invisible.

I saw the look that I couldn’t explain whenever I used to say hi or good morning or good afternoon or have a good weekend

Until I saw Hillary’s reaction when she saw Neil Winters in her presence on the soap the young & the restless the other day;

When I saw her eyes

I saw your eyes-

the look of dread.

the look of ‘damn he’s gonna speak. how do i avoid him?'

And I said to myself, ”OMG, that’s the same look that woman gives me at work!”

You won’t have to worry anymore.
I won't burden you.

I won’t see you

Even if you’re as close as the nose on my face.

J Dilla - Vol. 1: Unreleased (FULL ALBUM)

Saturday, August 8, 2015

I was in the mood

to bake this morning,

so I made a blueberry cream cheese cake.

I ate a couple slices today. I think I'll slice up the rest and put them in the freezer.

Friday, August 7, 2015

Question of the day

Donald Lawrence says that God makes sure that every door in your life is closed so that He can be the one to open them. 

What say you?

I was in the mood to bake, so I made these last night and brought them to work.


They were gone in a very short time

Soul Food Reunion clip

Thursday, August 6, 2015

What it felt like to be prayed for

Its about finding a new experience with someone you never thought you meet, who totally turns

your life around completely, helping you get a job and keeping you off the streets, church on sunday

morning, eventually I'm saving money, sending my life in a new direction, now I'm friends with my old man

again, standing here wearing this wedding band I can say I knew love because of you, say I know love

I know what love is all about

I know what love's all about

I used to think that love was just a weekend thing, the way you make me feel, sharing a moment

of emptiness, but you see that wasn't nothing, cause the moment she left I forgot about her, until you

came in and you showed me what it really felt to be loved, and kissed, and held, and prayed for, and

wanted, and nurtured and guided, and ohh to be understood

I know what love is all about

I know what love's all about

I know I can sit here and I can talk about it cause i've experienced it, and im feelin it, im livin it

right here right now, I got somebody who loves me for me, got somebody who loves me for me,

I know sometime I have to realize that sometimes its about compromise, and you can't always have your

way, cant always have it your way, love is about realizing and love is about redirecting your decisions,

whether to go out all night long or go home to the one you love, its about taking care of your family, and

taking care of your kids, and holding your wife at night and letting her know that the bills will be paid

on time and that you look and you listen to her cause its about love, say love, say love

--Anthony Hamilton

CHIC feat Nile Rodgers - "I'll Be There" [UK Version]

Tyrese - How You Gonna Act Like That

Tyrese - Shame (Official Video)

Tyrese - Shame (Official Video)

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Rumi Quote

Lovely days don’t come to you. You should walk to them. — Rumi